A love note perhaps?

I'll admit it, I got nervous when I saw her. I thought about her when I fell asleep last night. The woman that I've known for months but have never breathed the same air. She was a voice on the telephone, a sentence in an e-mail, a small, blond woman in another person's photos. But she was coming, already here for all I knew. Perhaps her plane had touched down in the midnight hours, the rubber of the tires squelching against the black tarmac, her thoughts going to me.

I doubt it - the most burning love is often unrequited.

I'd just gotten up from my desk and walked toward the coffee room when she appeared. Actually, I saw her companion first, someone I'd met months before. Butterflies swarmed in my stomach. I tried not to let my eyes dart away and search for the person I'd fallen asleep thinking about. I caught sight of her in my peripheral.. My eyes held to the wall until I hugged my friend and then I turned.

She looked different than her photos. More real, more of a woman. We hugged, I muttered, "Nice to meet you," and it was over. Our first contact. In my nervousness, my spooked movements, I didn't even catch a scent of her hair. I think back on it now and try to remember - was it floral, mint, something exotic, something common?

Throughout the day I snuck quick, furtive glances at her. In an attempt to avoid suspicion, I made sure to look at others in the room, bestowing on each my apparent attention. But always she was there, a smudge on my peripheral. When she spoke, I watched her lips moving over her teeth, twisting in a smirk, rising in a smile. I imagined myself knowing those lips, tasting them. Thin creases lined her eyes, like cracks in porcelain. They held a beauty that I cannot even attempt to put into words. A beauty that speaks of a life lived.

I'll never tell her any of this; never tell anyone for that matter. But today I fell in love, as I do most days. Tonight I will think of her again, looking forward to the next time I see her. The next hug, I'll make sure to smell, to let the mysterious scent of her wash over me.

And the memory will sit like a flower in vase, flourishing in the sunlight of a not-so-spotless mind.